observations from a nobody

…is not fun.

So today has had its fair share of awkward moments.

First off, the girl in history who I mentioned earlier this week got a lower grade than the guy who wanted to copy off her. Her and myself were surprised at his score since he isn’t exactly a good student. The guy and myself got the same score with her being a point lower. On an earlier quiz the girl and myself got the same score. One of the others in our group said that we should start a study group for next time. We’ll see how that goes.

Skipping ahead to work now since all I did when I got home was play Dead Space. Anyway, I get in and one of the assistant managers (the one another co-worker and myself hang with) comes over and says “Your mom is here.” I first thought “what?” but then realized it was my co-worker’s girlfriend dropping off a meal for me. I bought drinks for my co-worker the last few times so he said he’d get me lunch for today. Chinese food! So once I get started working on my totes the second in command of the store (who apparently didn’t quit, still unknown WTF happened) talked with some of the other employees and whenever I walked by he got quiet. When he did say things to me he told me I was acting weird today. He is gay and everyone is cool about it but I think he has a crush on me which had me thinking all day. The irony in this situation is crazy considering the girl who I have been flirty with came in for her paycheck. When she came in I went over to the office and chatted for a few minutes with her and then she went off with one of the assistant managers and talked. She did the same thing as the SiC in terms of me walking close and her getting quiet. Something is up. Quite a weird day for me.

As for the irony in the situation with the SiC, I seem to be able to attract a gay guy (if it is so) without being gay and flirtatious but my efforts towards the opposite sex I fail miserably. I really haven’t bothered since my last outing way back in March. Back then I was with someone I really cared for but things happened and now we are just friends. Since then I have told my ex how I really felt about her and that I will always be there for her no matter what and that I am always a friend to her. Many of my friends say I shouldn’t live in the past but I can’t help it. It is also probably the reason for my failing at hooking up with someone these days. I’d love to be with someone and a lot of my friends believe that I should have someone because of how good of a friend I am and how I care for them. I don’t see anything happening anytime soon because I can’t seem to escape the past and my introvert/shy/random personality fucks shit up all the time. Maybe I’m just being pessimistic and emo tonight.

Blah.

Back on Monday night when I last posted I was getting ready to get my new computer operational. Most of the parts were brand new but the video card, sound card, and power suppy stayed the same. Now my computer is a powerhouse that can finally play Crysis, albeit on High but still better than nothing. I am all ready for Red Alert 3 and Left 4 Dead.

In other news since I left off, I have a big check coming this week from Walgreens for my massive amount of overtime and bonus shifts. Can’t wait to see the digits on that. As for school, it still sucks. At least I started my research paper, not that I have gone farther than the first page but something is better than nothing. I think.

I’ll probably update this post with pics of my computer upgrade but I am not in the mood at the moment to resize them so you’ll have to wait.

BEGINS OCTOBER 7TH