observations from a nobody

As much as I try to keep everything up to date it becomes harder and harder. Things seem to get in the way. Lately life has been busy (as usual). Work and school tear apart my weeks. Days are mere hours long. I can’t believe it is March already. I hope things begin to mellow out. There are many things I want to go out and do but no time to do them unfortunately.

School is doing okay for the most part. History is still boring as hell. Math is math. Psychology is hit and miss, especially since I am prone to dozing off now and then. The only entertaining class is my creative photography class which always brings something new to the table. It’s my most looked forward to class of the week. Still sad it is only one day a week though.

As for work, well it has been hectic as of late. Had a few weeks of epic shifts and now things are finally starting to calm down but with call-ins and crazy photo sales it still spikes now and then. I just try and stay positive but even that is testing me.

We’ll see if I can update this thing on a timely basis.

Today I actually remembered to look at signing up for the fall semester. At this time I only have two photography classes added. I am looking at the next English class but I am hoping someone will join me that I know or find one that is fairly short since English has been known to be nap time for me. As for any other classes, well, I’m not sure. I don’t see any enjoyable computer science classes (even if it is my major). I could retake math, political science, or history from Civil War to present, but only the latter seems the least sufferable. I am trying to enjoy the classes I take so that I actually give a shit but goddamn they make it hard. I am just unsure of what to do anymore. I feel lazy and yet I feel like I could move on but who knows. There needs to be an easy button like in those Staples commercials.

Aside from school I don’t have a lot going for me at the moment. Trodding through life on a day to day basis lately. Just school and work. School and work. I almost want to hit myself. I guess once summer hits I’ll start getting out more and enjoying life. Plus it would be nice to have my car back. My brother’s car is funky as all hell. Only positive note is that it has better speakers. Not sure how exactly I feel in words. Can’t really put my finger on it. Just in a weird spot. My motivation is fucking deadlining, though you wouldn’t notice. I guess someone from my photo class hit the nail on the head with me being a Jekyll and Hyde. That or I’m just overly complicated. Something.

All I want right now is for it to be Wednesday.

Oh how karma and the world hate me. For once I do nothing wrong and yet I get the brunt of the aftershock. Let me get to the story to fill in the blanks.

After work last night I went over to my coworker’s house with one of the assistant managers to hang out. I ended up crashing over there and coming home this morning. The house was empty so I went on with my usual shit. Around noon or so I call my mom to see where she was and such. About an hour or so later she comes home with my dad (both were out shopping) and they call me down. At first I thought they were going to ask me about what I was doing last night so I was hesitant. I ask why and my mom says it wasn’t because I was in trouble, so I went down. Both of them were at the bottom of the stairs and I figured something juicy happened. My mom starts off by telling me not to say anything or rub it in which automatically pointed me in the direction of my brother. She then went on to tell me he did something stupid (go figure). The stupid thing he did this time was get pulled over by the cops, for speeding, in his friend’s car, with his permit, in another county. What. A. Fucking. Dumbass. Being me I said some smartass comment which made my mom reinforce the point about not making fun of him for his stupid decision.

About an hour after that he and his dumb friend come and my parents go out to talk to them. I’ll admit that I tried to listen in from an open window but failed. I did notice, however, that my brother has kept all his detention slips, write-ups, and the lovely citation/suspension notice on his wall. He does a lot of stupid shit yet is allowed to continue hanging out with his retarded friends. Back when I was his age I got slammed for the most trivial shit. I get pretty pissed about it and I have even told my parents to get harder on him but they do nothing. Although today this would only be part of the reason I am pissed.

In the last few days I have been planning an overhaul for my PC. It has been a long time coming since my current rig is a few years old and the only new things are the video card and power supply. I have spend time on Newegg finding the gear to push me higher and have found a decent setup for about $800. My plan was to replace everything and then take my current video card and power supply and throw them int he new box to save cash and keep them since I just bought them a month ago. To pay for it I planned to use the cash my mom planned to pay me back from when I had to give my parents all my graduation money to buy my car. Since my parents bought my brother’s car my mom planned to pay me back. That totals $1800. I would pay for the upgrade with what I needed and then throw the rest in my savings account. A perfect plan, but now there is a problem. Since money is tight she has been holding off on paying me back. To make things worse she now has to pay for the speeding ticket and any other payment due to my brother’s stupidity. My feelings now are really pissed off at him. I was feeling good about everything and now he has to go in and fuck it all up. The worst part all is that his court date is a month or so away which means I can either burn my current cash or wait who-knows-how-long and get my money from my mom and then have the current deals on the hardware go away. I’m fucked either way it seems. I just want to punch someone.

And as if this weekend couldn’t get any worse I have an English essay on character analysis to bullshit, study for a political science test, and prepare myself for a presentation in history.

Thank you world, for fucking me in the ass.

Today, yesterday, whatever it was, has been too long for it’s own good.

My day started with the first day of the Fall ’08 semester. Traffic sucked and parking sucked worse. Stupid first day. My first class of the day was Web Design. As I walked in the hall I noticed that one of the other teachers was telling everyone that some classes got swtiched around. I come to find out that my computer teacher from last year is now my Web Design teacher. Fuck me. Although this is somewhat good since I know how he is. Shouldn’t be too hard. Also it is good that I know someone in the class. This also goes with English 2. Same teacher was my first semester in college. Although this one is looking like it might be a challenge but my bullshit skills are ready. After English was my history class. I got there a bit late but in time (had to drop some books off at my car parked in nowhere land). Anyway, the teacher seems decent and it sounds like an interesting class. The sad part is there is no one I know in it. Political science also doesn’t have anyone I know but it will be a challenge like English. It has an epic research paper and the teacher is awkward in a funny “wtf” way. Should be interesting.

Work on the other hand was crazy. Lots of stuff to do and I ended up having to stay 45 minutes over to finish everything in the photo lab. At least I get some overtime pay.

I need sleep…